Beast King's Crippled Mate-Chapter 288: I am selfish...

Swan was still crying in a marble pavilion, surrounded by rows of beautiful and fragrant fall flowers that seemed to have no end. Yet, even this marvelous view couldn’t stop her from weeping for one second.

"My dearest daughter, you have been crying for weeks in Earth realm’s time. Are you not tired?" Asmara, Goddess of the Sun, walked towards the pavilion. She wore a gown similar to her sister, the Moon Goddess, but it was gold in color instead.

Her face was covered with light, so nobody could see it, not even her daughter.

Swan tried to suppress her cry until it was nothing but muffled sobs.

"My apologies, Mom. I was just... sad..."

"Because of your husband?"

...

Swan nodded.

Asmara sat next to her daughter on the marble pavilion, and gently caressed Swan’s golden hair, "You are the one who prayed to me, so I will take you out of the earth realm. You wished to be sea foam, to be dust, to be a nameless star that exploded and disappeared forever. I am merely granting what you wished for."

"I know, Mom..." Swan lowered her head. If she could be honest, she still didn’t regret what she had done by taking herself out of the earthly realm, because it was too painful to exist in a world where Gale kissed another woman. "Back then, I kept telling myself I was nothing to him. So I thought it would be fine for him to get another woman after me. As long as he kept me alive, it would be a blessing in disguise."

"I kept telling him to find another woman to satiate himself and pushed him away from time to time," Swan confessed. "But when I saw him kissing another woman, I felt like my entire body had turned cold, and I felt so bitter that I wished I would never see him for the rest of my life."

Swan clenched her dress, which was similar to what her Goddess mother wore. Her belly bump had grown a bit since the last time she left earth. fгeewebnovёl.com

"I-I know I am selfish. I shouldn’t have hogged him all for myself. But I can’t. So I... I just want to disappear, so Gale can be with whoever woman he wants without having to think about me and our baby anymore," Swan said. "I remember that time when my late father, King Tyrion, was so burdened after having me. He treated me like I never existed. He allowed my stepmother and half-sister to bully me nonstop until my leg got crippled. I don’t want my son to experience the same pain I had; born unloved and unprotected by his father."

"Didn’t he apologize and beg you not to leave?" Asmara recalled.

"He also told me that he loves me many times, Mom. He told me that I was his only one. He told me that he had never been in love before," Swan muttered. "How am I supposed to believe that his apology is genuine?"

...

The Sun Goddess wanted to show that the cursed wolf was affected by aphrodisiac and illusion. However, knowing the approaching danger from Great Witch Harsetti, the Sun Shadow, when Swan was still pregnant, Asmara decided to keep it hidden for now, at least until Swan had safely given birth to her son.

That was also the reason why she rejected her sister’s idea to let Gale and Swan talk because Swan was still overstimulated with grief and anger right now.

"Mom, can I ask you one thing?"

"Yes, what is it, dearest?"

"Why did you keep your silence all this time? From the day I was born and bullied, until now, why didn’t you help me even though I am your daughter?" Swan asked.

"Because you are meant to be with the cursed wolf, my sister’s representative on earth. You could only activate your power when you had your first contact with the cursed wolf. All of your awakenings from regular humans to a Saintess, and then to an Angel, are all because of your strong feelings for Gale," the Sun Goddess replied.

"Besides, he had been protecting you from time to time in the Holy Achate Palace. Do you remember the mysterious knight who saved you a few times from dangerous situations when you were a teenager? He was Gale’s spirit that you unknowingly summoned with your power."

Swan went silent after getting all the explanations from her mother. She wasn’t someone who liked to hold grudges, and though she had a bit of resentment here and there, she realized everything was in the past. At least she could walk with her two feet in this Goddess’ realm now.

Asmara saw that Swan’s mood was getting better, so she decided to show the gift she had been keeping the whole time.

"I have a little something for you to cheer you up while pregnant," Asmara said as she snapped her fingers. A small, orange tabby cat suddenly appeared on Swan’s leg.

Swan’s eyes widened as she quickly identified the cat. She hugged it tight, "Sunsun! Thank Goddess, you are not hurt!"

"Mraw! Meow!" The orange tabby named Sunsun also quickly recognized her owner.

Asmara wanted to tell her about how Aria ordered the guard to beat it until it died, so Swan was left waiting for a long time to feed her, hoping the cat would return.

But she realized it would only make her daughter sad, so she kept it to herself.

"Sunsun is safe and secure with you now. If you ever want to return to the earth realm, you can bring it with you," the Sun Goddess said.

"I... I don’t think I should return, Mom..." Swan replied.

"Why not?"

"Because I’m scared of what I would see. What if Gale already moved on from me when I return? He can conveniently cheat on me when I am pregnant, after all."

The Sun Goddess chuckled meaningfully, "I am sure you’ll change your mind later. It is all about your fate as my successor, my dearest daughter."