The Outer God Needs Warmth-Chapter 216: Lost Dream (11)

The holiday passed quickly, and now the weekday has returned.

The sky is clear, but it's particularly cold in the morning, so there are a lot of students wearing extra warm clothes.

And half of the students participated in class with tired faces. Most of the tired ones are the ones who went to the palace yesterday.

Since it ended very late, there’s no helping it.

“Why is Bell okay?”

During lunchtime, Polaris asks me while poking me with an annoyed look.

“Wasn’t it hard for you?”

“It was actually easier to cross the city with you.”

So, apparently, being physically tired is better than being in an uncomfortable spot.

“What happened yesterday?”

Victoria looks at me and Polaris with a puzzled expression and asks.

“We went to work at the royal palace.”

“I was dragged there by my parents.”

Victoria’s expression changes to one of someone who’s heard something difficult to comment on.

“Does that mean both of you went to the royal palace?”

“Yeah. You can see the tired ones in our class, right? They're all the ones who got dragged there.”

Polaris casually points to the students still in the classroom.

There are quite a few students who look really down.

They look as though they’ve aged a few years, sitting slumped in their seats from exhaustion.

“What exactly happened?”

Victoria asks hesitantly. It seems like she’s wondering if it’s okay to ask. Since it’s something related to the royal palace, she must be worried about whether it’s alright to ask.

But since the banquet came after the meeting, I don’t think it matters, right?

I turn my gaze to Polaris, who would know more. Polaris shakes her head at Victoria’s words.

“It’s the same old stuff when there’s a gathering. ‘Who did you compare yourself with, who do you get along with, who should you marry, that kind of thing.’ The things you hear from your parents are like that.”

“Wow. ‘For now’? Is there more?”

Even though it was called a banquet, it wasn’t really for playing around; it was work time, too. Polaris continues her explanation.

“You know how same-age kids are all gathered together? ‘Don’t touch this person. Do you think you’re that great? I’m the son of so-and-so, wanna have a go? What’s your business flirting with my man?’ It’s like that. Don’t even get me started.”

“It’s like an animal kingdom...”

New novel chapt𝒆rs are published on ƒгeewebnovёl.com.

“It’s worse than that. Tory.”

At Victoria’s muttering, Polaris shakes her head while adding her thoughts.

Not everything was like that, though. Some boys and girls lowered their heads and asked for favor, but Polaris doesn’t mention that part at all.

The essence of that action is flattery, I suppose. It’s not that they truly admire anyone, but they deceive others with sweet words to extract some benefit.

Polaris isn’t foolish enough to fall for that.

“Did Bell go to that kind of gathering too?”

Victoria asks while looking at me.

“Didn’t you cause any trouble?”

“Doesn’t it seem odd to ask like that?”

When I ask Victoria, she subtly avoids my gaze.

“No, after seeing that, I can’t really worry about Bell.”

“That thing?”

Did I do anything big? Was it about making gold?

“Malley.”

“Oh, that thing.”

When I mention that, Victoria looks at me with a chilling expression. I can actually feel the goosebumps rising. I only said “that thing” because it’s about an object, but is it really something that scary?

“Bell won’t die anywhere. But standing still in the same spot for hours seemed difficult. Some people were even whispering, asking if you were a doll because you were so still.”

Polaris says what she was thinking while looking at me.

It’s unfortunate that if you don’t talk about it, you can’t understand people’s thoughts.

“Humans have strong arms and legs.”

“Even so, standing still in the same position is torture. Bell.”

“Bell? Well, yeah. When I’m at home, I do something and move around like my mom, but if there’s nothing to do, I was so still it made me think there might be something wrong.”

After Polaris speaks, Victoria brings up an old memory. Now that I think about it, when we were cleaning Victoria’s room with Beatrice, she grumbled at me saying I take after my father for not cleaning.

The reason I acted like my mom is because Victoria didn’t clean up much at all.

“The young man, who’s now the next captain of the royal guard, was so jealous of the people beside him that he lost interest when he realized they weren’t human.”

Polaris mutters with a disinterested look.

The next captain of the royal guard? Ah, that person seems like a good young man.

Come to think of it, many girls were giving him jealous looks at first, but by the end, no one was looking at him that way.

Victoria looks at me as if asking if there was such a person.

“The person who guarded me? He had a good personality and did well.”

“Oh, what? Are you interested?”

At that moment, Polaris looks at me with a curious expression, as if she’s heard an interesting story.

“You mean ‘interest,’ as in thinking about marriage?”

“Yeah.”

“Nope. The body I’m in is originally supposed to be a mermaid, and I’m supposed to lay eggs. There’s no sign of that, so I probably can’t have children. Ah, not the hard eggs, but membrane eggs. Since mermaids have external fertilization, humans can’t experience sexual pleasure. So, I wouldn’t be useful as a wife. Not being able to perform at night is grounds for divorce, right?”

Polaris’s expression is like a broken machine. She fails to understand what I said and looks at Victoria with a face full of questions.

“Oh, right. I’m used to the current appearance, but Bell, at first, I was a huge mermaid.”

Victoria, as though recalling when we first met, doesn’t pay attention to Polaris’s expression.

“Also, if we look at the gender of the body I’m in, it’s male. Originally, this body was supposed to be inhabited by a male mermaid named Daegon. So, I might not be able to lay eggs.”

“What the hell am I listening to?”

Polaris raises her hand slowly.

“My body’s concept of reproduction.”

“Let’s not talk so explicitly about that, Bell.”

Victoria warns. Is it really necessary? Isn’t some level of talk like this normal?

Looking at Polaris’s pale expression, I guess it’s not the case.

Polaris grabs her head with both hands, then mutters, organizing what I’ve said so far.

“So, Bell isn’t originally Bell, but is in someone else’s body?”

“It’s similar. It’s more accurate to say I’m inside an artificially created meat doll, though. There wasn’t a victim this time.”

Polaris looks at me with a strange expression. Victoria looks at me with an even more dreadful expression, and asks.

“So, there has been a time when there was a victim.”

“The easy target for sacrifice is usually a young girl.”

Even without summoning me, if you look through Yasle’s memories, it was mostly young girls who became sacrifices.

It’s simply to be offered in death, or sometimes to summon something.

There’s even a priestess or shaman in faded memories, so I guess it’s a universal law, not just a world of one.

No, the memories of Daegon and the Ancient Heavenly Sovereign are shining.

Apparently, it’s actually like that. Especially Daegon’s details are unpleasant.

Anyway, depending on the species, it seems there are cases where they become male. It’s easy to understand if you think of seahorses.

If exploitation by another of your own species is included in the life system, then you can conceptually hold something else easily.

The easiest way to enter is through a collective, but it’s easy to get caught by the overseeing entity and be discarded immediately if anything seems off, making it difficult to properly ascend as a god.

If you are reading this translation anywhere other than Novelight.net or SilkRoadTL, it has been stolen.

When weighing the cost-effectiveness of time and effort, the memory shines with the fact that using an intelligent being like a human is the easiest. Apparently, humans are easily deceived because they have just enough intelligence to be tricked.

“Twice it was a girl, and now it’s this meat doll.”

“You’re not human, huh?”

Polaris stumbles as she speaks. It’s impossible to make a human out of a being that regenerates with just a head and one remaining arm.

No, maybe Tisshara could have done it. I’m not sure since I’ve never been badly injured.

Anyway, I’m not human.

“I’m a very dark and cold sea.”

“Then, I can use water?”

Victoria lifts some water into the air as she says that.

“No. It doesn’t matter. Among those who gave me this, there are people who use fire and people who move air, right?”

“Ah... yeah, that’s true.”

Victoria seems to have already seen such a harvest. Maybe that’s why she immediately understands.

“I don’t aim to give abilities. I don’t even know why a person gets healed when they receive me. I just gave it, and it works. It’s just being used now. It’s the same as Victoria’s abilities.”

“Abilities, huh.”

Polaris stares at Victoria. More precisely, she’s staring at the small water droplet floating near her.

“Can’t I use something like this?”

Polaris points at the water droplet and asks.

It’s a really good question. I’ve been curious about it, but it was a question I couldn’t ask easily. I shove the joy down and ask Victoria as naturally as I can.

“How did it feel when you got your powers, Victoria?”

“Me?”

Victoria points to herself, then crosses her arms and falls into thought. She’s probably recalling when we first met.

“When I did it, it just worked.”

“What’s that?”

Polaris grumbles, but Victoria doesn’t listen to her and slowly continues as though reminiscing.

“It just worked when I did it. No, more accurately, it was so natural that I didn’t even realize why I couldn’t do it before. It was just like moving my arms, so I just did it because it was natural.”

As expected.

When you gain a superpower, you know how to use it from the moment you get it. I had personally guessed that some usage method would enter my mind, but it seems like it just felt natural, as though it had been used before.

Her third arm grew, and she just started using it right away.

The recognition also rewrites itself. This.

So, Tissha, who got the passive regeneration ability, tested her ability after leaving that spot.

Her actions were so abrupt that I suspected she already knew how to use it before testing, and it turned out to be true.

If someone with superhuman patience or who felt uncomfortable with this power and decided not to use it existed, then despite having the ability, they might have chosen not to use it.

Well.

Once used, I’ll know.

I’ll have to keep that in mind.

“So, it means you can’t use it unless you feel that way.”

Polaris lowers her head with a disappointed expression.

“Do /N_o_v_e_l_i_g_h_t/ you need power?”

“It’s not like the power I saw in Vern City. It’s just, that person... that superpower is being used very conveniently.”

Then, Victoria proudly moves the water droplets around, showing off to Polaris. Polaris looks at me with a displeased expression.

“I wish I had that kind of convenient power.”

“Your chance has passed.”

“I don’t want to! Give me some—”

Polaris whines, and Victoria laughs while teasing Polaris.

And so, the short time before class started after lunch ended.