The Mighty Mage-Chapter 445: Letters

Gu Jin didn’t listen. She closed the door.

Long Yifan stared at the door for a long time in a daze.

He thought everything was finally going to go back on track.

His heart ached as he sat outside Gu Jin’s hotel room.

"Dirty...I am dirty for her...she called me dirty..." He muttered in a soft voice.

His eyes moistened, and a lump formed in his throat.

He had heard many nasty things from others.

Jinx. Idiot. Good-for-nothing. Burden.

Those words hurt him.

A lot.

After growing up, he thought he would be unfazed by any insults.

But now he knew...there was something that could break him.

’Dirty.’

He had become dirty for the woman he loved desperately.

Just a few moments before, he thought they might become friends soon, but now, there was a huge wall between them.

"Why...why did I even speak so much bull sh*t. If only I had stayed silent, we might have maintained the same closeness," Long Yifan mumbled, his voice full of regret.

He leaned his head against the cold door, feeling completely lost. His mind replayed Gu Jin’s words over and over.

"You’re dirty to me."

Those words stabbed him deeper than any knife.

"I’m such an idiot..." Long Yifan muttered, closing his eyes tightly.

He remembered how Gu Jin had called him three times a day.

She had been opening up to him. She even joked a little. He had been so happy.

And now?

Everything was ruined.

"Why did I talk about... that?" He groaned, hitting his forehead lightly against the door.

He couldn’t even blame her.

She had every right to be angry.

Three years... he had been with Gu Aihan for three years. Even if he never kissed her, never touched her, it didn’t matter.

He had let Gu Aihan stand beside him, acting like his future wife.

"No...it is the time to cry....I need to use this opportunity to clear everything between us." Long Yifan muttered and stood up with shaking legs.

He lifted his hand and banged on the door,

"Jin’er, please listen to me! Jin’er! Open the door! Please!"

"Leave." Gu Jin’s cold voice sounded.

"No." Long Yifan refused.

"I am not dirty. I love ever loved you. The only disgusting thing I ever did was imagine you when I was getting engaged to Gu Aihan.

The moment I imagined your face, I felt happy. For the first time after my mother’s death, I smiled. I was overjoyed!

I should have broken off the engagement right then and there. I should have confessed my feelings to you instead!"

The door of the hotel room was opened, and Gu Jin glared at him,

"Don’t shout. Others will come out of their hotel..."

Gu Jin didn’t get the chance to finish her words at all.

The next second, Long Yifan lightly pushed her inside and entered the room.

"You! What are you doing?" Gu Jin asked angrily.

Long Yifan’s eyes turned red, and he continued,

"What am I doing? I am going to explain everything today, and you will have to listen. I won’t let you call me dirty. I am not dirty!

I never initiated any contact with Gu Aihan and never even let her touch me. She was just my fiance only on paper.

Yes, I was a coward, and I never dared to confess my love. Do you know why? My mother’s last wish. I feel guilty and indebted to her.

I do love you as much as I love my mother. But the only problem is, I can’t choose between you and her.

Even though I felt terrible each day. Even though I felt suffocated. Life wasn’t easy, Jin’er. I had a cheating fiance, who displayed to everyone that she loved me, and I coldly ignored her.

My family members wanted me dead. I was never loved by anyone, and my sister was on the verge of dying.

Then I met you...the cold woman with a fiery heart. The day you asked me whether I was single or not, I wasn’t able to sleep.

For the first time in a long while, my cold heart thumped loudly. For the first time, I felt alive. Yet I didn’t dare to covet you. freēwēbnovel.com

After that, seeing your stubbornness, I fell for you. When I rescued you from Young Master Sang, I was angry at him for making you miserable, so I took revenge on your behalf.

But I never asked for credits. Who knew you would repay me by curing my sister. That day, I felt what I never felt before...love...true and genuine love.

So much so that I started to feel conflicted. Conflicted between my responsibilities and my love.

The day I got engaged, a part of me died. It died knowing the person who I can marry, never be you. Each day was a struggle for me."

Gu Jin looked away and said in a cold voice,

"Should I be thankful? Let me remind you. You were the one who broke my heart and left..."

"I didn’t." Long Yifan said anxiously. "I..." stayed by your side...

He didn’t know how to tell her. If he told her the truth, maybe she would think he was lying again.

"What? Tell me. Do you have a lie for even that? That you missed and wrote me letters?" Gu Jin scoffed.

"He did." Before Long Yifan could say anything, a voice interrupted him.

Gu Jin and Long Yifan both looked at the door and found...Jasmine was standing at the door.

She stared at Gu Jin with a warm smile as she said,

"Long time no see, Jin’er."

Gu Jin’s furrowed brows relaxed slightly, and she nodded.

Jasmine wasn’t the one who had mistreated her, and Gu Jin didn’t want to vent her anger on an innocent person.

"He did. In fact, he might have never told you anything, and even I would have remained quiet, but seeing how pathetic he is...I feel a little terrible. What to do...he is my little brother, after all."

A hint of confusion appeared in Gu Jin’s eyes, and before she could ask anything, Jasmine waved her hand, and many blue and pink letters started to rain down.

Before Gu Jin could react, Long Yifan tried to retract the letters, but Jasmine used her psychic element to bind them and said with a chuckle,

"You stay silent. You only know how to make things messier. If I wasn’t disappointed by your performance, I wouldn’t have interfered at all."

Long Yifan almost wanted to shout at his sister not to show those letters to Gu Jin.

If they were just love letters, he might have presented them to Gu Jin long ago!

But they weren’t just love letters!

Alas, Jasmine, who didn’t know the reality of the letters, thought she was committing a good deed.

Gu Jin hesitantly caught one of the letters and started to read,

"Day 226.

The Long Family is again pressuring me to marry Gu Aihan. I couldn’t. I love you, Gu Jin. I feel terrible. I don’t want to marry Gu Aihan...

If I marry Gu Aihan, I would remain a virgin my entire lifetime. Gu Jin, if only you were my bride.

I would have made love with you on our engagement date and married on my engagement day too.

Maybe there is truly something wrong with my brain. Even though I know I shouldn’t imagine about you, I still yearn for you, and every day I wish to kiss your lips.

My intel has told me that you had an argument with a professor today. Don’t worry, I have asked them to post all of that professor’s dirty deeds on the forum.

I can’t have you, but I promise to protect you in silence. That is all for today. I miss you and hope to see you more in my dreams."

Gu Jin picked up another letter and started to read it,

"Day 389.

Gu Jin... I saw you today. You looked so beautiful, even though you were just reading in the library. I couldn’t take my eyes off you.

But then... Gu Aihan contacted me. She clung to my arm like she always does, pretending to be sweet and innocent. I wanted to push her away, tell her I didn’t care about her.

But I couldn’t. Because if I did, they would hurt you. Gu Jin, the Long Family is watching you. I can’t risk it.

If they find out how much I love you... They will destroy you. So... I have to stay away. But it hurts so much.

Every day, I wish I could run to you. Hold you. Kiss you.

Tell you how much I love you. But I can’t.

I’m sorry, Jin’er... I’m so sorry..."

The anger in Gu Jin’s heart seemed to have faded a little as she continued to read the letters.

There were many different letters, some were funny, some were about his love and some about her daily activities and how he admired her from afar.

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